“Love each other or peri…

“Love each other or perish”

-Tuesdays With Morrie-

The way I see a new life.

It’s been about three months since I left Idaho and have lived in Utah. The atmosphere is just about what most people would expect, but with some hidden greatness to it. As I was driving down here in February I made a commitment to my self to have no expectations of my new move but to only be optimistic for the future and the new place I was headed to. I was eager to get to work and to start a new career. I worked seventy hours a week for three months while sleeping on the floor and pushing the odds and the limits I thought I once had. As I continue to work hard I must never forget my roots and beliefs I stand on in life. It’s easy for anyone to leave their hometown and create a ‘new you’, but the real challenge is standing firm in a belief even when no one is watching. The time i’ve had down here has transformed my look on life and personalized my belief that much more. Before I moved I felt dead to faith and dead in my walk through life. But after coming to a place of knowing nobody and coming home to my own house after work, I was able to get back in tune with my self and my relationship with God. Although I haven’t felt like I’ve heard His voice in a long time I still feel as though He’s spoke to me through the workings He’s done in my life which is really one in the same. It’s been easier not putting God in a box down here. As you personalize your faith you really start to see what this life is all about through relationships, friendships and the random people you meet throughout your day. I don’t want to sound like moving was paradise for me, cause we must always remember our roots and the people that influence us growing up. But as we preach what we think we must follow it in our own life. We all have different callings on our lives and it’s up to us to be receptive to that calling and follow it with all we got.

I live out.

I live out of the social scene to keep you guessing.
I live out of the social scene to keep you gossiping.
I stay out of what “looks right” to keep my self sane.
You can’t cope with it, but it keeps me entertained and driven.

For the last hour i’ve been writing and everything that I have written sounds like crap..For some reason I just can’t write down what I’m thinking. For the first time in a while though I’ve had the urge to write again but just can’t spit anything out. I guess for you as the reader you can understand the mind set i’m in. You’ll know that I’m at a confusing time in my life with stress on my heart and mind with no words to express it. I’m going to say that I’m ready to move from this town and start a new adventure else where. I have a uneasiness in my spirit that feels like i’m only wasting precious time here, when I could be succeeding in something somewhere else. I feel held back living in this town, looking directly into the scope of what a life could look like if I was to only stay. I wouldn’t be doing my self justice if I didn’t peruse after what I knew was right. In this moment I have no more to write about. I hope that i’ve disappointed some and yet sparked something new in most of you even with the most simplified open statements. We were all called to live individually and happy, seeking after only truth in our lives. I hope only soon I will be able to write again..

As the leaves change..

Truckn

As seasons come and go in our life we need to be acceptable to just that.
Change is difficult for anyone but can defiantly get easier if your open to the idea. After five years of being apart of Borders For Christ I have accepted the change of season with laying down the thing I have been most passionate with, to move on with a new season in life. As I lay down skateboarding I’m excited to move on and seek new passions and desires i’ve yet to find. Skating for ten years of my life has defiantly been fun and served it’s purpose in helping create my character and taking me on a world wide journey telling those about Christ. My heart is still all in for being a disciple to Christ, I want to be as open as I can and able to lay down even the things which are second nature to me. I believe it’s easy to hide behind our passions or little kingdoms that we have created, weather that be within the church or something we’re passionate about such as skateboarding. No more do I want to say..” This is who I am because of what I do”.. I want to be known for the fruit I produce in plainly being a man after Jesus, seeking only after His will and obeying to what He says. It’s easy to get caught up in what other people are doing, but when was the last time you checked into your own life to see what God has done or is doing in your own? Coming back from tour and a long summer of traveling I was forced to be o.k. with the silence and find peace and comfort in God and God alone. It can be easy to get caught up in life or ministry or church stuff, but the true challenge lye’s within living a quiet life and not seeking the approval of man. I start a new journey in questioning the daily habits i’ve grown accustom to; hoping that I challenge my self that much more, losing the things that aren’t glorifying to God. I long to be enriched daily with the presence of God, creating a new obedience of one who endures through hardship and seeks after Christ in the times that seem impossible. Let all our hope and trust be put in God, He is worthy of our praise and worship.

Hands wide open: Mt. Climbing

“The heart of man plans his way, but the LORD establishes his steps.” -Proverbs 16:9

Can we live life with the purpose to serve?
Can our focus be to love God and God only?

The greatest commandment was to love your God with all your heart all your soul and with all your strength. The single greatest commandment tells us straight foreword that if we want to understand real truth and understanding into life and into God, that we must be willing to give Him everything that we are.

I don’t use the title of Mt. climbing referring to a constant state of trucking upward towards God like he sits at the top of it. But it’s more in the sense of making a point in showing that because of what Jesus Christ has done for us we can let go from trucking through life and trying to figure it out to simply throwing our hands open and asking God to show us the way. This has truly been a challenge of my own not knowing where I’m going to be tomorrow or what trial I may face. I’ve been doing BFC full time now for the past few months having the great opportunity to travel around sharing the gospel to thousands of people around the country. I’m very fortunate to be in the position that I am in, It’s an incredible site to see God fulfill passions you didn’t know you had. He truly knows your heart inside and out seeking only the best for your life, showing you the love He has for you. I believe it’s very easy to to miss the meaning of life: Love. Defiantly not stating a cliché quote from Bob Marley, cause if you knew me you would know how much I can’t stand the rastafarian movement. No offense to those who like that stuff but just not my cup of tea. What I’m referring to is the Love God has. You see the way we have made church to be has become too legalistic, filled with foolish traditions completely missing the meaning of life. John the Baptist says that even he is not fit to wear the sandals of His Savior, but that when Christ comes He will baptize you in the Holy Spirit and Fire. What happen to the fire we were anointed with when we decided to start loving God? Since when did we decide we were fit to wear Jesus sandals? Yes, I believe we are like Christ in knowing we must lay down our lives and pick up our own cross, but by no means am I worthy to sit at the right hand of God. Only if I know who saved me from eternal separation from God, may I put Hope in a eternal life with Him. (Holy ghost cry out your heart!) I see in visions that the dreams from God will come from the lips of children, Church I’m calling you out to not miss on what God is doing through the generation to come. In a short while; following after Christ will be a life or death decision, one day we will be persecuted for Loving God and if your riding the fence now you better decide where your heart truly lies. For if you aren’t loving God now than you haven’t seen His glory and power, but let me testify to what i’ve seen. I have seen the broken come back together, I have seen a community filled with young teenagers that have dealt for years abusive fathers be healed in Jesus name. I have seen people in constant muscle pain be freed and stand up right again because of the love of God. It is all because of the love of God and not by our works. I hate to say it but I include my self in this statement when I say; we have missed to point. “Jesus we need you, Father God all we need is your Love.”

Come Lord, Come.

We’ve been on the road for two weeks now, we have traveled over 5,000 miles and been to I don’t know how many different states and cities. The first couple weeks have been challenging with our new van breaking down to making a pit stop at the ER for Mr. Shamberg. Amongst the chaos though the Lord never seizes to amaze me with His ultimate and divine plan of rescuing us. There were points on our journey where I was just so frustrated in my lack of faith in God that soon enough I let Him have it all and took a step into what I thought was impossible. It’s moments like that which help me reminds my self that God is still alive and moving in this day. Of course I always say it, preach it and know it, but it’s those moments that secure my faith in Him even if they are just mere glimpses of His character. It’s those moments that I hold on to that always remind my self of why I trust our God. It’s in those moments that take me back to my first Love of when Christ captured my heart and showed me life.

As far as our evangelism goes I believe that our hearts are open for the Holy Spirit to move and Gods word is going forth. We have meet some incredible people that have shown us unity within the body of Christ and hospitality like we were there own family members. It’s always hard for my self to receive the blessings people have been pouring out when I deliberately signed up to be put in challenging times. I believe that one of the only times a person grows is when he is faced with a challenge and cannot rely on his own strength. So my prayer is to be challenged and I believe I have, but its been in a way that I’m not use to at all. It’s in a way that doesn’t require strength of my own or sacrifice from bad habits but just pure confidence in knowing and trusting in the All knowing. If I was to come to a understanding of Gods perfect plan for my life than I would be unstoppable (In the Lords name) and I would fully understand that His will is being done. Because I know in my life I always question if the Lords will is being done, and am I where I’m suppose to be? I think the answer to those is Yes, the Lords will is being done and Yes, I am exactly where he wants me. I cant just keep focusing on the future or I’ll miss everything that’s going on now. See everyone wants to know what heavens going to look like or know what’s going to happen in the future, but for me right now it’s more of wanting to see heaven come upon earth. If I had my choice I would want to see heaven come tomorrow and see the glory of Christ reign on this place and who’s to say that can’t happen. Come Lord, Come.

Grace:

grace |grās|
noun
Simple elegance; Elegance: pleasingly ingenious and simple.

“But thanks be to God that, though you use to be slaves to sin, you wholeheartedly obeyed the form of teaching to which you were entrusted. You have been set free from sin and have become slaves to righteousness.” Romans 6:17-18

Can I go on sinning? By no means may I go on sinning so that Grace may increase. “We” who have found the truth in Jesus Christ have been entrusted with the secrets of the heavenly kingdom and also with understanding God’s word and the meaning of Jesus’ life. I cannot wrap my mind around the thought that Jesus, who was already in heaven, came down to earth as one of us and then died for us. When I think of that I say; well of course i’m indebted my life to the one who saves, who else in any other religion has done what Jesus had done? So as we see this perfect picture of heaven literally coming to earth I ask the Lord, can we see more of it? Lord; can I see people the way you see them, can I love like you love Lord and desire the things you desire? I can tell you that in my life I have made some incredibly dumb decisions; like most of us, but I still can’t figure out this “Grace” thing. Can I even go a day of forgiving everyone who has done wrong in my life, or go a day with even forgiving people for their past and the horrible things they may have done? Lord God these are the eyes i’m asking for, the eyes that can’t remember what sin had occurred in the past but only focusing on whats to come. Can I come to a point where this is a reality or must I wait till I come Home? Should I be questioning if the holy Spirit is alive and moving in my life if your kingdom isn’t being revealed to me or is this a dry season of learning obedience and waiting for a whisper from you? Must I decrease so that you may increase, will then you reveal your self to me and to this world? Jesus how is it that your blood has covered all my sin and the sin of man when we have done nothing to deserve it? Is it all for Love God cause if it was then I want to love how you love. The way I have viewed love has been filthy, rotten and not what you intended for it to look. We have corrupted everything good in this world even though we have been shown what perfect Love looks like. The Grace you have poured on us is simple elegance, which has been shown to us in the most ingenious yet simple way of Love. Can you teach us Love?

Opening

There’s a lot going on right now with a lot of prayer to be had. Truly though the feeling that I have cannot be said or written. It’s a feeling that the Lord has placed on my soul that consist of so many different experiences and teachings that are unexplainable. It’s experiencing a new depth to the Lords heart that I have never experienced before. I praise you God for revealing your self to me, for opening up a secret to this life and your kingdom. For a second I think that there is nothing more that can be said about life or nothing more to be taught, you come in and throw me back into my seat. Your teaching me to sit and rest at your feet, to be child like in my prayers and ask in simplicity and receive in the same way. You bring a burden upon my heart to seek after the lost and to pray for the hurt. This cannot be my own desire, cause when I was a live in the flesh I desired only to make my self happy. But you have restored me and brought life to a dead soul, by your grace Lord I have come alive.

I say all this as an open prayer, in hope that the reader can rejoice with me in the Lord always being faithful and loving. I have come to a new understanding of the term “family” and “community”, as I expressed in my last blog. I have seen so many ideas of what people think the “church” should look and sound like, that I feel as though we have lost complete sense of actually knowing what Christ intended for it to be. If I have a problem in my life and it’s manifesting into my relationship with God, than the response should be to find the root of it and destroy it. Let’s say you plant a garden with one flower, and invest everything you have into making sure this flower grows and flourishes into a breath taking site. But let’s say if you stop taking care of this flower, weeds start to appear. First it’s one and a couple weeks later the flower is just overwhelmed with weeds that you cant even notice the beauty of the flower anymore. As the Gardner you notice something wrong and you know the only way to solve it and to destroy all weeds is to dig them out from the root so they won’t grow back. I take the same view as problems and issues in my life that the Lord wants to overcome as well as in the church. There are weeds which are traditions and evil things that the Lord wants to dig out of the church that don’t belong. In order for this to happen it takes a servant to step up and say there is a problem, but what comes with that is persecution. Persecution even from your brothers and sisters that proclaim the name of Christ. So in my life I ask Christ who he sees me as and what road he has me on. I really don’t think we can go wrong if we go by that and follow His word. The church today is caught up in worldly standards, comfort and traditions. Seek out the Heart of God.